Favorite Mistake


Why is it so difficult to forget someone that we have a crush-on with or someone that (perhaps) we …love?

The normal me would say :
“delete all of her/his photos”
“erase her/his number from your phonebook”
“find another woman/man to forget her/him”
“it’s just not worth the fight”

But, somehow, even if I said those words, I know it’s difficult to forget someone. Even when you know the fact that this person may not have or develop any feelings for you.

It is foolish. I must admit that. But, as my any other writings shows, I always have said there’s no such thing as foolishness when it comes to love and feeling. Though at a certain point still it looks dumb.

People find it hard to position themselves in other people’s positions or circumstances. They tend to speak without knowing or even ever experienced the experience itself. Telling someone to forget their’s special someone is one thing. But, to do it by your self is a completely another thing and I must say it’s way beyond easy.

You see…perhaps we just don’t want to close the door or settling down with our past. We just like or perhaps enjoy the torture. We might not call it as a torture. We just simply say that it is a …condition where we are in the wrong time and place. And some other time we just entertaining ourself by saying that it’ll soon be over. And it all goes by our choices. Yes. Our choices. We do have choices. But, we deliberately refuse to see that. And we keep falling with the same mistake over and over again. The mistake that has becoming our favorite mistake.

When it comes to “taken-for-granted” condition, I was once in the same position. I was a victim and a suspect also. But, now I understand, being taken for granted was never been easy. Now at least I learn for once…to be more honest with yourself and other people around you on our and their feeling. I must say a word of cautious, truthful might hurt your heart and your feeling. But, it’ll less pain when it’s almost done. At least it’ll help you to understand things better, it’ll help you to be more mature and more sensitive in any way.

Keep falling down in the same s**t…perhaps for a certain people (like me), we just love doing (again) that favorite mistakes. After all, we’re just human being.

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